Healing
Hi, this is my first blog entry. Funny, I began a journal when Bob was diagnosed in early 2000. I wrote nearly every day for a year or so; then I made entries during treatment visits: surgery, recuperation, 40 days of radiation, and then all the follow-up appointments. It has now been nearly 11 years of follow-up appts. And the 'Journal' has evolved into a 'BLOG'. Quite progressive.
In the past 10 years, Bob and I have aided over 50 couples on their cancer journey, trying to soften diagnoses and help navigate the treatment options. Of those 50 couples, 48 of them endured the news, the planning, and the treatment. And they each have received a prognosis of being "cancer free"!
We celebrate their prognoses. But a little voice inside says, "Why do we need to continue carrying the burden of having vcancer in Bob's body?" I know...it's better than the alternative! But it overshadows life as it should be - free to live, free of illness, free of fear.
Cancer has not prevented Bob from working, playing, or doing most of what he loves to do. That is such a blessing. That is something to be thankful for. In a way, living WITH cancer encourages you to live a better life. Now it seems, living with the treatment is harder than living with cancer. We held off taking hormones for nearly 10 years; even underwent a clinical trial in hopes Lupron/Casodex was not necessary. But when we were told it was the next best option, we thought "we can handle this". Yes, we can. Yes, we are.
But it stinks.
In the past 10 years, Bob and I have aided over 50 couples on their cancer journey, trying to soften diagnoses and help navigate the treatment options. Of those 50 couples, 48 of them endured the news, the planning, and the treatment. And they each have received a prognosis of being "cancer free"!
We celebrate their prognoses. But a little voice inside says, "Why do we need to continue carrying the burden of having vcancer in Bob's body?" I know...it's better than the alternative! But it overshadows life as it should be - free to live, free of illness, free of fear.
Cancer has not prevented Bob from working, playing, or doing most of what he loves to do. That is such a blessing. That is something to be thankful for. In a way, living WITH cancer encourages you to live a better life. Now it seems, living with the treatment is harder than living with cancer. We held off taking hormones for nearly 10 years; even underwent a clinical trial in hopes Lupron/Casodex was not necessary. But when we were told it was the next best option, we thought "we can handle this". Yes, we can. Yes, we are.
But it stinks.